There’s nothing I can say
I’m sorry if I seem colder
In the face of your sorrows.
You had me tongue-tied at ‘love’
After years of never touching the line
Your boldness caught me by surprise.
I would never want you hurting
Over your desires, specially of me
I love you, just not the way you want me to.
But at the turn of who I am
I want you to walk with me
The only one I talk to, one of the few I trust.
Your sorrows bring me pain
Because I don’t know how to heal you
I wish I could have my friend back again.
And then you say you’ll give it all up
Your sacrifice carries a pang
But I can’t help but feel relief.
Romance is not my forte
My love is of a deeper sort
I explain and you agree
We talk some more, as we do
I was reassured to discover
Our own old path we could now recover.
So it came as some surprise
How well you hid it from me
The darkness festering in your heart.
You never talk of those days now
Our conversations are stilted
I’ve been busy, as have you; I never realized that I was missed.
Life continues as it does
Things are well for me you see
Progress, in whatever way, you support me.
Yet through it all I never see you
You’ve hidden your transparency
Having read this, I don’t know if I should look, or let you be.
© Ruth P. – 2016
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