There is no excuse for this
I’m simply loosing my mind
Waiting for your texts to appear.
Your image floats before me
I wonder why they say I’m crazy
When you’re only visible to me.
I’m tired of always pushing down
Putting my feelings out of commission
Sacrificing love isn’t me; I’m only doing it for you.
You’re the only one I trust
But I find I don’t really know you
We’re further apart now than when we never talked.
I wake up every morning
Pin a fake smile to my face
But I never look in my mirror any more.
I swallow with difficulty
My throat is raw from silent screams
People tell me they never hear me speak.
My eyes are red, and sometimes misty
It comes from staring too long at the sun
Just another red hot love I cannot touch.
You set my path to God
I’ll thank you every day
Bless you for your own kind of love.
I don’t blame you; this is just me
Pouring out my feelings in raw poetry
It is the only way I can talk about you anymore.
So I don’t hold back, this is just me
Me – deep, hollow, dark, and empty
Fighting to hold back the void, from consuming me.
© Ruth P. – 2016
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